In a tea house (creme de la earl grey latte deliciousness), desperately trying to catch up on photo uploading, blogging, general list making. My head swirls with way too many loose ends. The sun is strong and hot lately and maybe it's just going to fade away those undones, unnoticeds, untolds.
I could just skip to today. This moment. This very minute when I keep picturing my Jbird on his bike - how he came rushing in the other day to demand that we remove his training wheels (that he had only used a few times) and he just rode off, effortlessly without even a push-off. How he looks like he's been riding this bike forever, standing up on his pedals, coasting, speeding to the end of the block and back. How he looks so proud of himself, yelling at every neighbor he sees, "Look at me! no training wheels!, look at me!".
Or I could skip over to the littlest one. The sweetest Sparrow who will ask to be picked up and then will reward you with the most delicious, heart melting hug, with his head resting in the crook of your neck, his pudgy arms around yours and he'll just melt into you - and wait for you to melt back.
Or the man who walks beside me every day in this life. Who bats at every silly and outrageous ball I serve up to him. Who laughs with me and makes me laugh. The husband who shares my whispers every night as we talk quietly about what the boys did, what they said, our hopes and dreams, all in a hush to keep them from waking and interupting our short moments alone.
All these things are now. And always. And really, it's all the same, over and over again. Still blessed. Still wondering how this all worked out. Still in awe of how it cobbled together and flowed from now into now.